April 6, 2012
That is the question.
Oh world of facebook, twitter, linkedin, whatsapp, google friends (or whatever it is)..
It is the era to have a public life.. which is just the Sagittarian’s cup of tea I might say.. but somewhere along the line I started analysing myself (and without great skill it would seem) to try and come up with the best approach for all these things.. What am I.. the doctor or the patient? Do I have several different personas or is it ok to just have one? I joined twitter at the encouragement of a patient but I don’t just feel like posting up studies and intellectual content.. I want to support, encourage, chat and nurture, AND provide information but don’t quite know how to go about it. Except to somehow be myself.
I learned from the wonderful entrepreneur Marie Forleo (if you want to get inspired, and happy, and get great business tips and advice, got to http://www.marieforleo.com, you won’t regret it!! I spent hours one day just watching all her cute little biz tips videos) that you can be all things, that those things make you who you are and that make your business uniquely you, so just go for it.
I like the quote from Joseph Clinton Pearce, ‘In order to live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being right or wrong’.
So I’m just going to write about Hashimoto’s, health, single parenting, dating, and keep an online diary, and see where that takes me from here. Perhaps then I’ll really find a true direction or the missing link.
January 20, 2012
Had the best acupuncture with a colleague last Friday night. He used an amazing Japanese heating device thingy called an Onnetsu up and down my spine and either side of it, with the goal of balancing the parasympathetic and sympathetic nervous systems in mind.
It obviously bloody worked because i felt AMAZING the next day. Like I mean a complete absence of symptoms. Just normal, body calm. I had no idea how much I’ve become adjusted to a sense of constant struggle and internal war going on until I felt the relief of that.
It did slowly return after some busy work days, that sense of internal warring.. but for several days after the treatment I felt clear, and sweet, and calm and anxiety free. My only symptom was some fatigue after a couple of days but I didn’t mind that so much without all the inflammation. And it wasn’t like the dragging down, drugging you while you walk and try to socialise type of fatigue, it was manageable.
Going back for my 2nd treatment tonight!
December 22, 2011
Wow, has it really been a year already? I was just dusting myself off from the last post and then here we are already!
It’s now been 2 years since I my diagnosis.. I have tried ‘everything’ in that time, and my illness is definitely 70-80% better than it was. I have now returned to more full time work, started my own business and managing my Hashi crashes with much better skill and dexterity than I was.
I have never had to take thyroxine and hope I never have to.. I don’t want to mask my symptoms or create negative feedback loops for my hormones.. I actually want to be well. (Hashimoto’s is supposed to be permanent and incurable). And I want to deal with the auto-immune component. And no offense to GPs, they are great for diagnosis, and are savvy pharmacists, but when it comes to aligning the body back to real health I’m yet to be impressed by anything they have to offer (I’m open to changing my mind about this at any given time).
This photo was taken of me a year ago and is a good example of my Hashi face. This might not seem like a big deal except that it was taken during the day and I usually look like this (a little more electric and vital):
This photo was taken of me a year ago as well, during my birthday party, after I had stayed in bed the whole day to make sure I had the energy to go out for a few hours.
In the previous photo I feel like I look drugged, and that is exactly what having no uptake of T3 in your system feels like. Like you’ve been given a shot of anaesthetic, and staying awake for public or social occasions is actually like some form of torture, I can tell you that! Also, Hashimoto’s related fatigue (for me anyway) is not just fatigue, it feels more like a war is going on in your body and you just have to shut down in order to reboot and stop the chaos.
Ironically after a really deep, good rest (and as long as I manage my diet and keep taking Chinese medicine/supplements) I feel beautiful, absolutely beautiful.. clear and fresh and vital (as sweet as the below picture), just how I imagine our human bodies are meant to feel like.. more than I think I ever felt like even before I was ever diagnosed or prior to the onset of the illness.
In future posts I’d like to go into my Hashimoto’s history, the treatments I’ve used, etiology (ie what I think caused it) and what I have learned in my past 2.5 years- on top of what I learned at uni/Chinese medicine in the hopes that other Hashi sufferers can get a bit excited about their own condition and progress with restoring themselves to TRUE health. And not just Hashimoto’s sufferers but anyone with any other conditions- fertility related, metabolic, other auto-immune nightmares, digestive problems, food intolerances, depression or anxiety disorders.. the list (unfortunately) goes on.. but I know one thing.. they are all inside the human body and can all be managed, if not cured or treated properly, to a greater degree no doubt than the sufferer at first hoped.
I’m pretty sure it won’t be a year til my next post, as I am getting pretty fired up and ready to go, and have a lot to share.
All the best, folks!
September 19, 2010
It’s been a year since I was diagnosed with Hashimoto’s disease. And what a whirlwind, crazy, mind-blowing year it’s been. I never in all my life thought I’d actually get an illness myself, so it took me a couple of months just to get over the waves and waves of shock. I felt afraid of my body, as if it was a friend who had failed me and become a stranger, I was afraid to be in my own body.
In the past year I’ve made friends with it again, accepting new limitations but never giving up on the possible light at the end of the tunnel, that if I listen carefully enough I could unlock the key to its undoing.
As an acupuncturist/Chinese medical herbalist (but only recently graduated) it has afforded me a huge opportunity for growth and learning, and a special insight and sense of deeper compassion to the people I see in my own clinic. There have been times of deep panic, not knowing which direction to turn next (and I have had no shortage of helpful tips and voluminous amounts of information being in the health industry).
The first real point of light for me was the discovery of Sean Croxten, Paul Chek and this wonderful, conclusive, exciting website http://www.undergroundwellness.com. I began to see myself and my body as a wondrous living organism that had become out of balance instead of as a sick or diseased person. I felt hope, light, love again. (THANK you Sean if you ever read this!!)
From there I have travelled a thousand miles and made some very interesting discoveries, which I hope to share on this blog in the hopes that it might help not only myself but others who might just be feeling exactly like me.. panicked and googling and searching for answers (whatever their disease may be) and not knowing which course of treatment to take when there are so many available. Looking for the method that will guarantee an outcome mostly. Who has the experience? Who can offer me certainty, before embarking on an expensive, time-consuming journey that you’re never sure will even work.
I look forward to further discoveries on this journey. It has taken me a while to get around to blogging this, though I’ve been wanting to for a while. Finally I’ve taken the first step! And as the saying (by Lao-Tzu) goes.. the journey of a 1000 miles begins with the first step.